i couldn't sleep last night and i lay awake thinking, 'it's absolutely ridiculous that not only can i not lose weight but i can't even maintain my weight'. i think binge eating is still the culprit. i barely have any appetite and sometimes feed myself bc i know i need to eat, for example, yesterday, i had a babybel cheese bc i hadn't eaten, wasn't hungry, but needed protein. this totally satisfied me for hours until i had my left overs before school. sometimes, it sends me into an eating binge, i don't realize how hungry i am until i eat and then i gorge on everything i can find or make poor chooses because the joy of food overcomes the rational mind.
i have decided a few things. 1-i took my thyroid supplement this morning, i am going to take it everyday. (i talked to my grandma on my mom's side and she has a thyroid issue too along with my dad, so i am getting the genes from both sides on this one) 2-i am going to monitor what i eat through this blog, of course i am going to try to be healthy, but everything is going up there so i have a record. 3-i am going to monitor the exercise i do no matter how minimal and include info if i was carrying a bag, etc, and again, everything is going up here so i have a record. 4-how do i see results? i am not big into weighing myself, plus my scale has a 10pound up or down rate of accuracy (don't get scales at thrift stores, folks) and i don't want to get the tape measure bc i know that will automatically deter me. i will think about this one, but basically i think i'll be able to see it, feel it and fit into my favorite clothes again if it's working!
Tuesday Food:
-lots of water throughout day
-1/2 fresh squeezed lemon & cayenne
-pear slice
-coffee
-soy creamer
-babybel cheese
-sesame citrus tofu
-broccoli
-multi whole grain rice
that's it. i got some luna bars and fruit leathers from trader joe's and i have one of each in my school bag if i get hungry at school so a) i don't spend $ and b) i don't eat crap.
Tuesday Exercise:
-morning stretches
-walked to store (approx. 1/2 mile)
-walked from store with full grocery bag and 12 roll of TP (approx 1/10 mile - took bus which i wouldn't normally do but since i still hurt, i did)
-walked to bus-stop with school bag on (approx. 1/2 mile)
-walked to class and up lots of stairs carrying bag by side (approx. 1/2 mile)
-walked from class to bus-stop (a little less than 1/2 mile)
-walked from bus-stop home carrying bag at side (a little less than 1/2 mile)
-feldenkraus block neck and back stretches
(walking total = about 2 miles)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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Posted by nikkol at 12:27 PM
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Hey,
I think that you should consider having your thyroid checked again. It's been awhile... at least a year.
In the last year, my problem has gone from being mild hypothyroidism, to extreme hashimotos disease. Like, at first my dr (and remember, she's holistic and does everything possible before treating with prescription meds) was hesitant to treat me with meds at all and just wanted to give me a supplement... which I used for nearly six months. My case didn't improve and slightly worsened... so she put me on a small dose of med. And a year later... my thyroid is a goner.
Stuff like this happens.
I am the big, fat proof.
i think that's good advice. but i am going to wait and see what happens this month when i actually take the supplement every morning.
i want to get off the BC pill but i have to talk to psych about it. last time she told me she didn't advise it but i am in a better place now. i have to get a pap, so i will talk to them about it and talk to psych about it. and maybe in that time i'll have met someone that i may have relations in the future so i may explore staying on the BC pill.
:( thanks for sharing your story. you bubbly, amazing woman! love you =D
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